Erin's poetry
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Crush
Emotions pour in the form of tears;
confused,lost,scared,hopeful
all rolling down my cheek.
All I can do is think what if?,
what if he doesn't feel the way I do;
what if he thinks I'm weird;
what if my thoughts fly by him,
like an eagle in the wind?
I need to know before I crack.
My heart is huge full of hope,
my stomach hurts with fear,
like a big knot being pulled.
I drive around for hours;
dazed,confused,resentful,
blocking out everything,
but what it would be like together.
Wondering if there is a message
on my machine waiting for me,
as I step in my door.
I head home hoping to hear his voice.
I enter, only to be let down.
No message; maybe he'll call.
If he does, do I ask him?
Do I ask him what HE feels?
Does he feel the way I do?
Sick to my stomach,
hands shaking,
Love; I don't know, I barely know him.
Maybe I am, Maybe I love him,
It could be.
What if my love turns to hate?
It can't, I won't let it.
He can't know I'm obsessed,
Obsessed with hearing his voice,
seeing his face.
Not obsessed with bad thoughts,
but of love and happiness.
I want to be with him;
I have to call him;
I have to know the way he feels,
even if it ends with pain and tears.
I'm going to call
and ask if I'm more than a friend.
I need to fight the fear of being let down;
it happens to everyone
I just wish it wouldn't to me!
No not this time. Please not me.
It can't. Not again.
Empty
A tear falls,
A memory brightens;
Her heart sinks,
can't go no more.
She's assured hope,
but only tears,
for she lost a love
she thought that cared.
Her feelings to good,
for his simple mind,
need a place
to go and hide.
Her tears will stop,
and memories will fade,
but a piece of him
will always stay.
Damaged
To end the tearsechoed at night,
To erase the memories so deep in thought;
Surounded of a father smothered in bourbon
and the cold,dark nights dampened with fear.
To let her know it's alright to cry,
for she lost a childhood, stolen by hate.
Now to grow up and start all over,
only to lose a person she loved.
Losing her to the confusion and sorrow,
her only companion besides her tears.
The friend she thought was under control;
until the day she lost her soul.
To her the days can only get better,
but the tears will fall forever and ever.
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I Love You, Mother
Why are we so far, Mother?
I want to reach you,
but something's there.
Something's holding me back.
I hope you know
I love you, but to show it
there's something there.
I can't break away,
I want to be closer.
Our love is hidden;
protected by fear,
but you must know,Mother,
I love you,
God, do I love you...
Why can't I say it, Mother?
I know it's there,
it wants to come out.
I need you to know it,
but something's there.
Something's around my heart,
making it shiver;
beggingfor warmth.
Help me open up,
to show you I care.
I do have feelings,
my emotions are there,
but you must know,Mother,
I love you,
God, do I love you...
Arguement
Frustration building up,
Words thrown around.
Both getting hurt,
but no one will admit it.
Too ignorant, too stubborn,
Neither will let down.
No one will admit that words do hurt;
what may seems harmless on the outside,
burns me deep within.
I'm the one who won't show my pain,
he'll never know he's won.
The words will stop,
but the pain still stays,
burned deep inside,
so no one will see the tears.
It Meant Nothing
Yes,I did it,
but it meant nothing-
A spur of the moment,
Guitless thought.
Now I regret it
you have to know;
it meant nothing.
Your the one I talked about,
he knew you were mine,
but didn't care.
I guess I was helpless,
but it's no excuse.
I didn't mean it;
it meant nothing.
Everyone says "shit happens"
that's what it is "shit".
You must know I love you,
but don't be mad,
I swear to you;
it was nothing,
nothing at all.
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Faded away
I'm lying here,
I want to fall asleep,
so I can't think of you.
How much I loved you,
and now your gone.
You left me all alone
with no one to cry to.
You were my everything,
I felt so close to you,
like nothing I could do
would ruin a moment.
Ever since you left me,
I can't even think anymore,
of anything but you.
I want to call you,
to beg you to take me in your arms,
to hold me
and never let me go.
But it's a dream
that will never come true.
I need your touch,
your gentle embrace,
to ensure me my life's ok,
but it's not
and your not here.
I'm left to face this all alone,
with only pictures
to ease the pain.
You say it's not forever,
that it's only temporarily,
but everyday feels like
forever without you.
I need you;
I want you;
and always will I love you.
Need to be Loved
Sadness fills the room;
Emptiness fills the soul.
A beautiful girl
with tears in her eyes,
lays motionless,
numb with pain.
Alone she wonders,
why she's so cold.
Shivering and lonely,
needing comfort from someone;anyone,
who will fill the space
so hollow and dark,
but sadness fills her room
and emptiness fills her soul.
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